Sunday, July 24, 2016

Been watching 21 convention videos lately

I've just been bored, not much else to do, for those that don't know I used to be pretty active, wanted to be the number 1 pua in the world but not so much anymore. Since 2009 (even before than). I've been dealing with mental but physical health issues.

I was also working in a very negative/hostile environment for about 5 years while dealing with this as well. I still have a long ways to go recovery wise, but I now have a doctor and a counselor soon too!

I think I may be able to go to the 21 convention finally this year or next as well. The videos lately I've seen from the 21 convention have been great. I think I've learned more from the 21 convention than a lot of other sources I think, it really liked opened my mind to a lot of new areas and interests.

Also like Anthony has said in the past, his convention isn't just about dating or relationships but is a broad spectrum now as well. Thats very important I find that someone is not only open minded but well rounded, it helps a lot I think in personal success and dating success as well.

Aside from that I've been working on some businesses very hard and my health is always my priority, I want to take care of that first but also reinvest into my business some as well. I want to list even more products on one of my websites, once I get enough money I'll likely enroll into a few udemy courses as well.

I want to get back into mma, dancing and my past interests as well too. I also want to write a book (or ebook), get back into acting and try some other things out maybe?

I've been working on not only self talk but also been meditating, walking daily, taking ice baths and trying to avoid gluten and soy as much as possible.

I want to start going out perhaps once a week and then move it up to a few times a week, also do more online game and focus on other aspects of my life too.

I've been doing this not even consciously it seems but i've been slowly eliminating some of my negative and toxic friends ive had since high school. I've had some of the same friends since high school and while I like to hang out with them I want those similar to me that want a lot more out of life.

I've been meeting and talking to different people but haven't met many positive, cool people I want to be around (except one friend from high school maybe who went to a nearby high school).

I may also need to distance myself from some family because they have often done more harm than good in my recovery as well. My self esteem has been rather low lately, it probably doesn't help I don't go out much but want to improve that.

Anyways just felt like posting this since i can't sleep worth a shit...

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

Why I took a long break from PUA and likely won't continue my pooahness

So I started this blog a long time ago, at least 4-5 years ago and in that time a lot has happened and a lot has changed. It's unfortunate what my life has become, but I don't blame myself because it was due to my health issues beyond my control. I won't go too much into depth what I've been through (and still going through), especially because there are people that have it worse and not trying to compare or compete. When I started this blog I was improving my life, not only with my dating skills but elsewhere as well. I feel I went about my life in a circumventing, round a bout way. I got too into pua, etc. and didn't focus enough not only on creating a profitable business and improving myself, although I don't regret anything and doubt much would have changed. I see pua much more differently now. I see a lot of messed up people (sociopaths) and those that manipulate to get what they want, there is also a lot of infighting. This field, dating/relationship coaching is hard to set up standards, especially because everyone wants to improve in different areas and have different goals. A lot of the old school pua techniques and teachings, are just fucking weird and/or creepy. I get that you have to push yourself and get out of your comfort zone, but I think for a lot of people, pua makes them even weirder or creepier. I'd rather focus on everything important in my life, such as my mental, and physical health as well as my business, friends and improving my social and dating skills. I spent way too much time working somewhere I got no joy out of and didn't contribute anything to my livelihood. I may get back into this in time, but it won't be the same as before and will go about it in a much smarter way. Right now I really want to fix my health issues but also bring awareness of them as well. It's so frustrating when its hard to get help for these issues but also comfort, support and get treatment for these. I've been to close to 10 doctors, about half of those have been utterly clueless and the other half, 1-2 of them were really helpful. Our government as well as our healthcare system (and insurance) is braindead and ran poorly. The basic health care/medicaid system is a joke, the doctors in the network (especially in my area) are ignorant and have no clue what they are doing. The closest clinic to me, doesn't even have doctors but nurse practitioners! I've ran into soo many people that have no clue how CFS affects me, in so many ways, and the study/research of it is lacking soo much. Compared to cancer and AIDS research there is little done, there are all these charities and causes to help them out but where is the help for CFS? In some cases it can lead to being bed bound and can kill someone. A lot of it is just a guessing game and requires buying supplements and medications (which are hard to get in the first place!), paying for bloodtests and tests that are generally aren't covered by insurance. It's hard to diagnose and then even when that happens everyone wants to debate you and tell you what they think will work. Conventional wisdom as well as conventional medicine is lacking, I haven't done enough research into healthcare, regulations and the study of it, but I don't trust a lot of conventional doctors, those that are into natural medicine or open minded are hard to find as well.

Thursday, May 14, 2015

Where I've been what I've been up to

So I thought I had posted recently about whats been happening, well a lot has happened since my last post, and so much has changed. I have been unemployed since last summer (august of 2014) and while it hasn't been entirely enjoyable it has afforded me a lot of time. I have been busy with writing, managing a supplement business and working on so many things right now. To be honest I'm not giving up pua or giving up on pua but doing it differently and following more of brent smith's teachings. No I haven't been out really at all in a long fucking time. I am dealing with so many health and money issues its hard to really get anything done. Its really hard to go out as well too. I work a lot from home and working on getting a sizable income as well. I am also working on my health issues, I have chronic fatigue syndrome, anxiety, hypothyroidism, among a few others. If you want to look up what I am up to lately, check out my twitch at, my new blog at and also check out my youtube channel at

Friday, March 21, 2014


I just created Naturogenix not too long ago and I wrote a hubpage about it with more details at: I also have a facebook page as well for naturogenix.

Sunday, April 21, 2013

New job, new side job and health updates

So things have been looking up considerably, I just recently started doing affiliate marketing again, I did it some a few years ago with the thirty day challenge. I am doing it through pajama affiliates, if you are interested you can click the link I added to this blog. I will have a new job as well too. So far my articles, and squidoo lenses are doing well, I heard about it from Ratisse, and in the near future hope to be able to work from home, especially as my health improves and i can work on ebooks, start going out more and work on myself more. I have been reading clarity by Jamie Smart which is an awesome NLP/self help book, first one I have read in a few years, so far im only a few chapters into it though.

Sunday, July 29, 2012

So I've decided to post more about me recovering from what I've been going through and some things I've been working on. I am still at my job which I need to find a new one soon and fast, that place is just toxic to me and negative and possibly the worst place to work in my condition. It is sad to see and very frustrating that people don't understand what im going through and then to continue to make comments. I've snapped at a few people in the past and even went to Human Resources recently to talk about it. I've applied for an internship at a local graphic novel/comic book publishing company, and there are a few other jobs locally I will apply to that I think my degree will come in handy in getting them. They aren't ideally what I'd like to be doing but they pay more, are less stressful and are better for my health and sanity. Health wise my doctor has me on a more loose version of the paleo diet which I know Chris Kresser sometimes uses. Im going to have some rice/starches (such as sweet potatoes mainly) and some gluten free grains such as buckwheat. Also going to try to have a variety and different vegetables as well. The last time I saw my doctor, the thyroid hormone seems to be helping/working but I have mitochondrial dysfunction which may relate to methylation/snp issues which I've been wanting to look into. I had about all the tests done for Thyroid that I could get except antibodies which I want to look into as well. She also said since my vitamin D was low to get more sun and try walking everyday. I have been trying but since I work when the sun is up I mainly do that on my days off. I still have a natural sunlight lamp though that I use as well. She limited the amount of supplements Im on as well, I was taking a lot and just taking a few now. As I get better and more stuff is needed and as I absorb nutrients better, supplementation or nutrition will be used. My B12 was low and as far as I am aware If its high or low it could be methylation issues, last time it was tested it was actually high. My insulin is still high but not as high as before, but my kidney and liver enzymes are to normal levels as well. She has me putting castor oil treatment to help repair the digestive system since from what I described to her, my ileo cacal valve is messed up and food isn't being digested well enough. I have been looking into self publishing/publishing again as well, Jeff Goins has a great blog on it and even has a few of his ebooks for free. I am still doing HIT on about a weekly basis but sometimes I do take a two week break. Besides that I have been finally getting around to reading "Lights Out!" and working on getting to bed earlier and getting more sleep. I have to follow up sometime in the near future so that I can get some more testing done and see what I can do to more address methlyation issues. From what I have read and researched it can get quite complex especially when dealing with other issues such as adrenal, hormonal, thyroid and other issues (such as my fatty liver). There are primarily two genes associated with Methylation and 50 genetic Singular nucleotide polymorphisms (SNPS) that can affect it as well. So far I have only tested one of the genes for methylation and came back I was homozygous normal. My dad got tested for same one and has one bad mutation or copy so he likely has methylation issues as well as pyroluria (which I have as well).