Tuesday, July 28, 2015

Why I took a long break from PUA and likely won't continue my pooahness

So I started this blog a long time ago, at least 4-5 years ago and in that time a lot has happened and a lot has changed. It's unfortunate what my life has become, but I don't blame myself because it was due to my health issues beyond my control. I won't go too much into depth what I've been through (and still going through), especially because there are people that have it worse and not trying to compare or compete. When I started this blog I was improving my life, not only with my dating skills but elsewhere as well. I feel I went about my life in a circumventing, round a bout way. I got too into pua, etc. and didn't focus enough not only on creating a profitable business and improving myself, although I don't regret anything and doubt much would have changed. I see pua much more differently now. I see a lot of messed up people (sociopaths) and those that manipulate to get what they want, there is also a lot of infighting. This field, dating/relationship coaching is hard to set up standards, especially because everyone wants to improve in different areas and have different goals. A lot of the old school pua techniques and teachings, are just fucking weird and/or creepy. I get that you have to push yourself and get out of your comfort zone, but I think for a lot of people, pua makes them even weirder or creepier. I'd rather focus on everything important in my life, such as my mental, and physical health as well as my business, friends and improving my social and dating skills. I spent way too much time working somewhere I got no joy out of and didn't contribute anything to my livelihood. I may get back into this in time, but it won't be the same as before and will go about it in a much smarter way. Right now I really want to fix my health issues but also bring awareness of them as well. It's so frustrating when its hard to get help for these issues but also comfort, support and get treatment for these. I've been to close to 10 doctors, about half of those have been utterly clueless and the other half, 1-2 of them were really helpful. Our government as well as our healthcare system (and insurance) is braindead and ran poorly. The basic health care/medicaid system is a joke, the doctors in the network (especially in my area) are ignorant and have no clue what they are doing. The closest clinic to me, doesn't even have doctors but nurse practitioners! I've ran into soo many people that have no clue how CFS affects me, in so many ways, and the study/research of it is lacking soo much. Compared to cancer and AIDS research there is little done, there are all these charities and causes to help them out but where is the help for CFS? In some cases it can lead to being bed bound and can kill someone. A lot of it is just a guessing game and requires buying supplements and medications (which are hard to get in the first place!), paying for bloodtests and tests that are generally aren't covered by insurance. It's hard to diagnose and then even when that happens everyone wants to debate you and tell you what they think will work. Conventional wisdom as well as conventional medicine is lacking, I haven't done enough research into healthcare, regulations and the study of it, but I don't trust a lot of conventional doctors, those that are into natural medicine or open minded are hard to find as well.